Today I kinda sucked it up in a lot of ways. I felt overwhelmed. More accurately I was swirling around in a big vat of overwhelm. I was overwhelmed by thinking that it was all too much: too many messes, too many projects, too many stinking weeds in the yard, just too many things that “needed my limited” attention.
When I indulge in feeling overwhelmed I get short, snippy, and demanding to be around. I took a tone with my husband and I yelled at my kids. I didn’t like being around me very much today. In short, I sucked.
Sound familiar? Have you ever sucked it up too?
Tonight after the kids were in bed I went to my room. I prayed and had some realizations. I had some unfulfilled needs. Do you know what I needed?
What I Needed
I needed some support.
I needed some appreciation for all the hard things I strive to do.
I needed some compassion, a little TLC.
Once I realized what I needed I gave it to myself.
I told myself that I was doing so well and thought about all that I did that day and told myself thank you. I told myself good job for giving it your all. I told myself to get some rest and just overall sent myself some compassion and support.
And you know what? Here at 10:23pm tonight, as I lay in my bed writing these thoughts I feel peace. Yep! peace, even though I was a sucky mom and wife today. I dropped all inclinations to beat myself up and just chose to meet myself where I was at with open arms.
Lean on YOU
Did you know that you can fill your own needs? You can send yourself compassion. You can send yourself some support. You can lean on you. Who else is better to get your own back than you?!
Now I am not advocating for being an isolated being, not enjoying others, or allowing others to help. What I AM saying is that when you allow it you can be a pretty good friend to yourself. You can be good company for you!
If you need acknowledgment, acknowledge yourself to yourself. If you need compassion, send yourself some compassion. Creating these emotions within yourself is not only possible but gets easier with practice and time.
Just as an artist has mediums to create art. Time is the medium through which we travel and grow and expand as individuals in this human experience. This growth happens so much easier when we love ourselves there rather than berate and shame ourselves into some semblance of submission.
When you find yourself after a messy mom moment or at the end of a sucky mom kind of day meet yourself there as a friend. Send yourself warmth and create a safe place of rest that your soul desires. Choose to like yourself, even and especially when you are not your best self. Meet yourself where you are and choose to love yourself with all the good and bad that entails.