As I’ve the let the Holy Spirit guide me in sharing painful and hard experiences, I’ve been taught so much truth. I’ve received healing by offering hope and understanding to others and their pain.
Category: More Holiness Give Me
When I only view life through the lens of “right now,” it is often perceived as unfair. [But] as we have the promise and hope of all our tears being wiped away, so can the pain and grief that accompanies unfairness be wiped away through redemptive experiences and lessons from God.
I confessed my fears and anxieties to the Lord and told Him how inadequate I felt. The answer that came was that He knew me and my circumstances better than I did. He let me know what He needed most from me was to be willing.
I’m not sure how long I stayed there. I’m pretty sure people were yelling at me to get up. It felt like hours but was probably only a minute or two. Suddenly, there were hands on my arms, lifting me up, and a kind voice saying, “Trish, you’re okay, go ahead and finish, you’re almost there.”
Then came the sweet merciful impression that my mortal and fallen body, [my vessel] that experienced the great depths of depression, was also NOT designed to fail. I was designed and created in the image of God and my body was meant to successfully take my own soul to the promised land of God’s salvation and exaltation.
I turned and saw the beauty of the sun setting (as pictured). It took my breath away and brought tears to my eyes. I suddenly felt so grateful for the traffic that made the timing so perfect to witness such beauty. If there would have been no delays or obstacles getting there, I would have missed it.
God wants us to be where we can regularly have the warmth and brightness of His love and guidance. I’ve found as I’ve continually made small and simple changes, God is there waiting in the change.
The evening I forced myself out of my house rather than vegging, my run ended with such a magnificent sunset. Instead of crying tears of frustration, my heart felt full of joy to see such a sight. Running seems to shake off the dust and nonsense from my thoughts. It’s much harder to feel overwhelmed and sorry for myself when I’m enjoying the magnificent world and body to experience it all.
As I went to church and observed the women around me prayerfully, trying to see them for their spiritual gifts, I found myself more optimistic and happier being at church. I was less concerned with my own shortcomings when I was sincerely trying to see good in others.
Mothers, you need to receive gifts because you are seen! You are loved! You matter so much! I hope you will search and find the holiness of this season through not only giving, but being willing to receive gifts from others even if they aren’t wrapped or put under a tree.